Yesterday while I was writing my daily morning pages, an image appeared in my mind's eye that I would like to share with you:
I saw myself holding a red balloon by the string. My hand was clutching this balloon like crazy. There was no way I was going to let it go or lose it. It was so beautiful red and I had waited a long time to be able to have it. It gave me a sense of security & direction. Deep down though, I also knew that time had come to let it go. I couldn't hold onto it forever.
Why was I so afraid to let the red balloon go? He would just fly away beautifully. Flying quietly, lightly & elegantly into the sky until I would see it disappear.
Why did I feel this fear inside me?
I suppose I was afraid of the emptiness. Of not knowing what would come after.
What would happen then?
What if I don't know what to do? What if nothing comes?
Letting go. An eternal topic. Maybe it just keeps coming back to us in life. Like a boomerang. Sometimes with less force, sometimes with so much that we can't withstand. Right now I am learning to let go again.
I finally let go of the red balloon. My hand felt free. Like a weight was lifted. As if I would become free again. Before I had thought that I could not live without the balloon. How often we deceive ourselves in our ideas!
As the balloon left, also the fear of emptiness flew away. And the bitterness, the tenseness and the heaviness.
I thought to myself, how much easier it could have been, if I had let go of the balloon much earlier.
I finally felt strength and energy again that I thought I had lost. I didn't even realize how much strength the red balloon was costing me. How much it held me back.
Let go. Leave it behind and go. Forward into the unknown, into the new, into the wide.
Maybe letting go is also a current theme in your life ?
What do you need to let go?
- Write down briefly what you want to let go of.
- Pick out what you could let go of right now.
- Then take a walk. 20 minutes is enough. How do you feel?
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